(Written in 2008 for my future wifey)
I desire you in every way you can imagine the word is defined.
Trying to explain the magnitude of my craving for you at its highest point would only make me look crazy.
But here I go.
Please don’t judge me.
Close your eyes and picture the word DESIRE floating in the dark.
but not too long, how would you read the rest of this?
In between each letter, millions of pounds of dynamite are waiting to erupt.
“Boom!”
The chaos brings the destruction of what I thought love should be and brings with it a new design.
This restoration of my soul brings a new definition of what devotion can be if I could only find you.
Where are you?
The INTENSITY and FORCE of those detonations are only a minuscule portion of the desire I have in just meeting you.
And when that day finally comes, I’ll know you’ll be my future,
and we’ll immediately begin to reminisce.
See?… This shit sounds ridiculous.
I’ll turn into a feen, and my addiction will be your ability to heal me with just your love.
I promise my love will eradicate all your pain too.
Together, we will both forget love as it used to be and rewrite a new blueprint created just for us.
I apologize for the long road you took to find me and all bullshit you had to step in.
Just a bit of a warning, your adventure is not over.
At first, I might be a little complicated and put you on a detour around my heart.
But I promise the obstacles you face will all be worth it.
So I cant become yours just yet,
but imagine how hot our fires will burn, when and if we ever meet.
I’m out there looking for you.
Please find me.
Unknownly already yours,
Edgar Ruiz Jr.
The back story to this post
For the first time in my adult life, I was single and dating.
I wrote this after a really good date with a girl.
We had great “physical chemistry” but I knew it wasn’t more than lust.
I desperately wanted to find a new love.